another disappointment

it has already 3.30am and i still can't sleep
suddenly i remember about the disappointment to some of my friends
i know there is no perfect friendship in this world, but reminding that incident, still makes me feel hurt yet disappointed
the fact that you have to act that you're ok but actually you're not ok
the fact that you have to act like you don't care but deep down it hurts
you forced to smile so they will think nothing's happened to you however it's not true
it's all because i don't want them to think if i'm that weak!

no one realized, no one understands, and no one cares..

i know everyone does't want to be in my position at that time, but how come they don't care when i was in that position?just because i don't complain so they think if i'm ok?
i don't mind to yield, but how many times that i should yield to them?
i want to complain too
but i just can't say what i really feel easily.yes, this is me..
so back to that phrase "no one realized, no one understands, no one cares, and no one knows me"

hope i will forget that incident as soon as possible
life goes on and i've got a lot of lessons from this disappointment
like someone said, "sometimes, ignorance is a bliss"