a farewell message

dulllll how are you?it has been three years already haha. time flies so fast
seems like you have proven to me and to yourself that you are good at english :p
congratulation for you, becoming an australian man now hehehe
reminding the good old times when you always called me to teach you english
before our exam, you called me at night and always asked me to explain about it
we studied through phone until midnight hahaha
and when i got your exam to be checked, i had to change your answers so you wouldn't got a bad mark
such a coincidence that you also got my exam to be checked too
now, i believe you have already good at it. all becomes a good memory..

i know we will never go back anymore. you have found your mrs.right and i still on my way to find mine. congratulation for both of you, just heard about the news few days ago. long last dul :)
don't worry about me because i'm happy for both of you :)
thank you for saying i was the one that make you change to be a better man
i appreciate when you felt regret about everything that has happened to us
you don't have to regret dul, because you are becoming happier now and so am i :)
i believe that you have already changed, keep treating your mrs.right well!you have promised that to me haha
last time when we met each other was in my farewell party, so it has been more than a year i haven't seen you yet. hope someday we will meet and talk each other again like in the past as a good friend :)

take care in aussie!should be a diligent and successful person in your study, your life, and everything. don't forget to keep smiling, that's what you teach me to do whenever i felt down. and last, don't ever forget what we have been through together especially on that rainy day hahaha :p
let's keep our memories for ourselves. promise me!
thank you for making me smile
thank you for reminding me to read bible everyday
and thank you for the lesson and the memories that you gave to me
take care and good luck to you dudul jeleeeeeeeekkkkk
don't worry, you will always be my ugliest friend forever hehehehehe :)

still wondering why you put that sad face hahahaha

exercise oh exercise

this week was so damn tiring!
body clock screwed, sleepless night, and head is going to explode haha
all the exercises for every subject should be submitted this week!
inhaleeeeeeee exhaleeeeeee inhaleeeeeee exhaleeeeeee

but thank to God, i still can manage my time well
and i'm happy with my works :)

okkkkk i want to share what i did for my "narrative illustration's" exercise
the topic was about phobia and i chose heliophobia which means scared of the sun

1. actually, i did some sketches but the teacher like this two

2. i scanned the sketches into my laptop and start tracing them using adobe illustrator. others said it will be easier if we use tablet, but i don't get used to it LOL so i just used my mouse and it took almost 5 hours each to trace the sketches -.-

sorry, it looks so messy -.-

the hardest part when i did this was to choose which one that should be in the front and which one that should be at the back. we have to draw everything in different layers. and arranging the layers wasn't easy at all. I SHOULD BE PATIENT!hahaha

3. Then, i start to choose the color for every object. i like this part!!but it wasn't easy too because we should know and differentiate what is the focus part in our illustration.

4. Last step, DETAILING!! this part also not easy at all. we should put some textures for certain objects, controlling the focus area by using opacity an soooo oooonn. the most important one, we have to be full concentrated in doing this step. and after spending a lot of times for this exercise, i finished it today :D actually it took three days for doing this exercise. because sometimes, i felt saturated and choose to do the other things :P

and here they are....the final illustrations :)

using some texture for certain objects and put detailing inside the illustration really works right? :)

i know maybe my artworks don't look nice for some of you

different people, different opinion, right? hehehehe

i just want to share some of my artworks here

"knowledge is never ending"

yessssss!!i have to learn more and more and more and moreeeeeee

hopefully i will getting better and better as the time goes by :)

another disappointment

it has already 3.30am and i still can't sleep
suddenly i remember about the disappointment to some of my friends
i know there is no perfect friendship in this world, but reminding that incident, still makes me feel hurt yet disappointed
the fact that you have to act that you're ok but actually you're not ok
the fact that you have to act like you don't care but deep down it hurts
you forced to smile so they will think nothing's happened to you however it's not true
it's all because i don't want them to think if i'm that weak!

no one realized, no one understands, and no one cares..

i know everyone does't want to be in my position at that time, but how come they don't care when i was in that position?just because i don't complain so they think if i'm ok?
i don't mind to yield, but how many times that i should yield to them?
i want to complain too
but i just can't say what i really feel easily.yes, this is me..
so back to that phrase "no one realized, no one understands, no one cares, and no one knows me"

hope i will forget that incident as soon as possible
life goes on and i've got a lot of lessons from this disappointment
like someone said, "sometimes, ignorance is a bliss"

disappoinment

now i have already known the truth
actually you don't have to lie from the beginning
it's ok to say the truth
i won't judge you by the way
i will try to understand
you know what?
you are the one who has said to me
"don't ever lie to your feeling.because pretending that you're ok when actually you aren't, is the worst feeling ever"
such a disappointment why you don't say the truth from the beginning
and such a disappointment that you don't say the truth by yourself
we are a good friend right?
nothing that should be hidden from me hahahahaha
but it's your choice not to tell this to me
just remember, i will always hope and pray the best for you, friend :)