my confession

yaaap this is my confession of falling for a boy. i'm a type of girls who not easy to fall for someone,but not so hard too. the hardest part about fall for someone is starting first. i don't know what should i do, always facing two options. first, should i show my feeling to him?or second, should i keep waiting and hope until he will like me too? if i think about that, i don't know what is the correct one because if i show my feeling, i think it isn't good enough for girls to show it first, it's like too aggressive -.-" and i don't like being like that. but why some of my friends have different opinion from me? some of them choose to show it for example, when the boy's birthday she called him first and made a cake by herself. if she is his gf or his crush it isn't a problem but if she's just his friend does it sound too exaggerate?when the result is the boy fall for her too, it's good. but how if the boy feel disturbed by her act?the second option, if i keep waiting when will the boy see me or know about my feeling? just hope a miracle comes lol. maybe that's why i always lose from the other girls. i don't have any effort to get what i want. my other confession, for me it's very hard to forget someone who was so close to me.but why it seems so easy for the others? for example, my friends have a relationship almost one year but when they broke up after two months later both of them have the new one -.- when we talk about love everything is confusing. it can make us happy and sad at the same time. now i'm 16th already and i never have a relationship but it isn't a big problem for me because i know God has deserved someone who will be my perfect prince someday. there will be a right person in the right time!and having a lot of ex isn't something that can be proud of lol. for now, the important one is make God,my family and friend proud of me :)PS : dear my prince charming, i don't know who you are now. you can be one of my friends or a stranger who i never know before. but i know you will come someday and God deserves you for me to make my love story has a happy ending :D